have I ever told you that..

I saw PARAMORE Saturday and it was unbelievable.

I love when I go see bands that I know so well

Meaning every word of every song that is.

And i also think the starting line is rather incredible

and the almost did wickeddd, except they were very hardcore.

which was still wicked.

but difficult.

lol ^-^
I do not care if they didn't take time to meet their fans

(who by the way stood outside for 4 hours in the FREEZING cold. Yeah it was like 20 degrees I couldn't feel my toes...)

Theyre still my everything.

oh and so is this beautiful person:

My favorite Paramore songs currently:

Let This Go.

Here we go again (extended/live version)

Let The Flames Begin.

That's what you get.

My Heart.

Everyone loves all we know is falling more than Riot!

but I think i MIGHT love riot! more.

Because you can tell that its from the heart

(and it's not all about Jeremy haha)

and it has a lot of songs on it that you have to listen to a

ton of times beffore you really see how great it is.

and you can tell theyrve all gotten way better

and its just really great.

But awkif will always have a special

place in my heart because well, its like a legend.

its pretty much perfect

except for idk.

Both albums are GOLDEN

so its obviously hard to choose.

reality won't hurt, well, longer than it should

i guess the most that i can do is
make a call and tell you the truth
sing the words in melody
and hope that you'll believe me
here's another song for you
so this one this one makes two
i still don't know where to begin
i'll just leave it at this
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don'ti hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes
this is the least that i can do
you know i'm bad at calling you
the best way i can extendthe lonely words i miss youi'll say it but i'm sure you knew
you're what i look most forward to
coming back to where i've been
i'll just leave it at thisi'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
if you feel unwantedwait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don'ti hope you knowyou're my favorite thing
about the west coasti wish i stayedi hope you wait
so here i amcounting down the days till california comes

till california comes


i swear kenny knows what I'm feeling.

now the rain is just washing you out of my hair

destination: beautiful

you can't be perfect.
Well I just know this because you just
can't be.


have you ever just wanted to punch everyone you know in the face real hard
except for one person that even if you wanted to
theyre too far away for you to reach.
but you would never want to anyway.
all you want is to be in their arms again
like that mexican boy and that pale boy at the airport.

I take a walk down to the shore
And I wonder how much longer I’ll sustain these steps
It’s been a month since I’ve been gone
And it’s been a month too long since you have graced me with your presence
I smell your scent on every single shirt I wear;
I find pieces of your hair stuck to my suitcase
I try to call but the reception here is weak
And it’ll still be three more weeks until I get home
I hope your waiting by the door when I get home
I don’t want anyone to see me here alone
It’s not enough to say “I think about you” now
But that was all I had I walk the boards alone tonight and try to fill this empty space inside my chest
I took Atlantic home tonight and every neon light, and sign, spelt out your name
And every morning that I wake
I make a point to check the date incase I slept an extra day
I’ve crossed so many numbers out But every time I count them there are so much more


I hope youre waiting by the door when I get home
I don’t want anyone to see me here alone It’s not enough to say I think about you now
But that was all I had, but that was all… I hope your waiting by the door when
I get home I don’t want anyone to see me here alone It’s not enough to say I think about you now

but that was all i had.

perfect.

today was the perfect day.

I'll elaborate more tomorrow.


but it was perfect.


"From Boston to Seattle"

the only not perfect thing was that the 'to seattle part' wasnt there.

tonight, I am the drug you can't deny.

G-A-B-E gonna get you high.

I love our vibrant colors.

I miss that night.

Me+coll coll thought that gabe was going to be a bitch for some reason

but he was actually really really sweet.

He like looked at my eyes when he was talking to us and he smiled in the picture

as you can see. Colleen was gonna make a cool face like me but then Gabe made her laugh.

I wish g-a-b-e was gonna get me high tonight.

Theyre so good live.

I don't even want to talk about bryce or mikey right now.

I refuse to listen to sherwood or the rocket summer tonight. Or even cobra starship.

Its just too depressing.

So I'm listening to someone I haven't listened to in a really long time.

The hero/heroine video premiered yesterday

and it's easily their best.

I think it would be more meaningful if hanna beth was the girl in the video

but hanna beth is not meaningful to begin with.

I like to see Marty getting some action from someone other than her.

ahahah./

I loved how all the amazing spots in this lovely state I live in

were in the video.

All the fun places to be.

All the places I see all the time.

It was really realy great.

I'm really pumped for this Friday.

It's going to be a really great day.

This weekend is gonna partially suck though.

17 days till fuckingparamore.

so, 16 till tourzilla.

I really do miss those boys.

so is this what you call a getaway? Well tell me what you got away with.

I like listening to run to you really loud on my ipod because it sounds like Bryce is singing right into my ear.

I take a walk every day.

It's usually my favorite part of the day

unless I'm doing something really exciting that day.

It's really nice especially now that it's fall and the air is really crisp and clean

and the leaves are really pretty colors and when I step on them they crunch.

I always walk at sunset because it's the presttiest time.

I always walk with my ipod whose name is eleanor.

(My first ipod was named eleanor rigby but she died so now it's just eleanor.)

Today on my walk

I saw the lady I babysit for

and she talked to me for a minute

but then i kept walking because she was talking to this other lady. When she thought I couldn't hear her anymore she started to say 'that's my babysitter' to the lady. She started talking to her about me because I didnt look like I was listening to her but I was. I'm always listening. Even when I'm not. I like how she said 'my babysitter." We both know I am not hers but that's okay because no one says i belong to them ever except my mom which i hate. But I like it when My dad says it.

I like when people are taller than me.

Lauren is really short and she says that it's weird that I like it when people are taller than me but I really do. It makes me feel small and safe but don't listen to me because I dont even feel like listening to me and i dont even know what im saying.

There's no school tomorrow and tonight i'm going to the mall.

My aunt used to be one of the coolest people I know

But now I think she's crazy.

I thought of a really good christmas present for colleen and i started working on it.

I still have no idea what i'm getting Julia but it has to be good.

I actually have more than 100 bucks to spend this year so everyones getting good gifts.

They might not even cost anything

because they might be priceless.

I wish I could get everyone I love something priceless

But priceless things are sometimes very expensive.

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,

like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.

For twelve years I've held it all together

but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.

I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.

I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.

we were just there together and that was enough.

thatscommitment: oh okay that's good lol she just wants to see meeeeee her favorite person in the world
x3sundaydrive: yes of course

thatscommitment: maybe she'll adopt me

x3sundaydrive: we could only hope
x3sundaydrive: and you live in my house and we could have the same room becauise we would kick melanie out and we could both get really great jobs on newbury street and you could drive us every day and we would be rich and go to every show we wanted in any state around here becasue my mom is not strict at all and even if she is she gives in easy
x3sundaydrive: and then bryce/martin/jeff kummer will marry me and jared or andrew will marry you and we will get houses next door and live happily ever after.
x3sundaydrive: the end.

thatscommitment: that sounds really really nice.

thatscommitment: really really really like the closest thing to perfection i can think of.

x3sundaydrive: i agree
thatscommitment: oh and we will be rich photographers that shoot all the cool bands.
x3sundaydrive: of course.

x3sundaydrive: "And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

go read the perks of being a wall flower by Stephen Chbosky.

Julia told me to read it and I did

and it was a really effective book

I love reading but I never know what to read

So now you know and if you want to be enlightened than i suggest reading it.

i love bryce avary.

This is a picture i stole from this girl on myspace.

So sorry.

but i think its really beautiful.

do you want to get away?

get in the car we can leave today.

thank you God

for lights.

and electricity.

thanks god.

whoever you are.

Man I just saw something I'm glad that you are here.

I got to start to thinking And seeing things so clear.

Cause now how could I forget What she left

What happened in November Is what I needed.

And I'm sorry, that it shows But life ain't so bad you know.

Bryce avary is my biggest hero at the moment.

Im just so confused and depressed and all of these feelings

and I know hes felt a lot of awful things before

but what he sings is the most real thing that i know.

the last to know

The rocket summer is tied with paramore.

Theyre incomparable though.

Its so difficult.

but if i DID number my bands...

1. paramore 1. the rocket summer

2. The Early November

3. Mayday parade

4. We The Kings

5. Between The Trees

6. The Starting Line

7. The Higher

8. Cuteiwwaf

9. New Found Glory

10. Mae

I dont know where to put sherwood, it's a weird situation.

i love them times infinity though.

and also ive been listening to brand new a lot.

And the MAINE listen to them theyre golden.

and my favorite highway, sunny day real estate, the fold.

so much good shit.

yea we all have our things, I guess.

Hello & Happy Thursday

My heart is flying

because I am listening to Bryce

and I might be seeing Mikey

again on wednesday.

IM SO EXCITED

whoa I need to clean my room

and do mad homework

I really love PostSecret.
It amuses me that people

have such interesting secrets.

and the fact that they cant share them with anyone

except everyone

they dont know.

I think I'll send one in.

Lyrics of the day:

No oh and this won't be a sad song

there's gonna be claps and singing along.

around the clock-the rocket summer.