Writing never takes the place of living

i think that the cover artwork and inside artwork of a different light is like the best one I've ever seen.
I love the lyrics.
I love them.
I miss them!

my head hurts so fucking much!
I wish I was working so I wouldnt have to be here.
I miss my Dad and I want to go to pizza with him
My mom is believing everything my aunt says.


all over a fucking

different light.

16 names on my list

and none of them could ever get me hot like this.

eating pb&j and watching the church channel nightly

I saw Juno last night it was like the best movie I ever saw. I love it so much. It's like way up there for me.

Today was such a shitty day.
I held in my tears till I got home though.
Well I tried.
I hate when people are in a bad mood and it effects everyone else around them. Its pretty much what happened to me.

Everyone keeps pretending that they found my camera and it's pissing me off so much that I am on the verge of tears. People are jerks.

I AM CLEANING MY ROOM TONGITH IF ITS THE LAST THING I EVER DO.

i miss my friends!
I want to hang out more often with all of them!
i wanna run away. but only far enough to make you miss me.

I wish my mom would come because i miss her
and i really cant live without her haha

2007. you were swell.

welll I'm copying Bryce. haha.

top 10 records:
10.Viva La Cobra- Cobra Starship
9. So Wrong It's right- All time Low
8.A Different Light- Sherwood
7. In defense of the genre- Say Anything
6. From the screen to your stereo pt. 11- New Found Glory
5. Self titled debut album- We The Kings
4. A Lesson in Romantics- Mayday Parade
3. Direction- The Starting Line
2. RIOT!- Paramore
1. Do you feel- The Rocket Summer



Top 10 songs:
10. guilty pleasure- cobra starship
9. break it out- the rocket summer
8. the king of wishful thinking- new found glory
7. check yes juliet- we the kings
6. The Church Channel- Say Anything
5. Remembering Sunday- All Time Low
4. misery business- paramore
3. island- the starting line
2. three cheers for five years- mayday parade
1. let the flames begin- paramore

**not all released in '07

Best 5 shows I went to:
5.Warped Tour '07 (Paramore/Boys Like Girls/Cute Is What We Aim For/ All Time Low/ The Rocket Summer) 9/19/07
Columbia Meadows Oregon

4.Hellogoodbye/Boys Like Girls/The Hush Sound 5/6/07
Avalon Boston, Massachusetts

3.Motion City Soundtrack/Sherwood/The Higher/The Forecast 7/24/07
AXIS Boston, Massachusetts

2.The Academy Is../armor for sleep/The Rocket Summer/ Sherwood/Cobra Starship 10/27/07
Lupo's heartbreak hotel Providence, Rhode Island

1. Paramore/The Starting Line/The Almost 11/24/07
The Palladium Worcester, Massachusetts




Most anticipated records for '08
Jack's Mannequin.
Augustana.
The Fray.

elizabethtown is so great.

Come pick me up
Take me out
Fuck me up
Steal my records
Screw all my friends
They're all full of shit
With a smile on your face
And then do it again
I wish you would
When you're walking downtown
do you wish I was there?
Do you wish it was me?
With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes
Do they all look like mine?

It's not faith if you're using your eyes

merry christmas,
and happy haunukah (sp?) to gabe and
everyone else who likes that sort of thing
I had a great day
I got ALMOST everything i could want!
And tomorrow i have X-mas #2
at my Dads.
Oh the joys of divorce?
And thursday i might get a new camera,
but i want it to be the best one I could ever get so
I want to do some extreme thinking and researching
(as if i don't do that everyday of my life)
since the womb my dad says
Also Coll-Coll's christmas present is not working out well
so i need someone who knows where i can buy
a chain with a picture slot at the end...



haha!
fangs up?

<3monica

I've never seen a girl look so good in thick rimmed glasses before

we both were born to be one with that which the public scorns.

Perfection bores me.

I have an irrational fear of doctors

and needles

today. fucking. sucks.

Photograph each day so we can live forever

Get me out of this fucking competition

seriously

this isn't cool. You're not cool. I'm not cool.

Nothing's about you

This isn't about you

ahhhhhhhhh

someday soon, we all will be together.

Tonight was so lovely.
We put up the Christmas Tree.
We found one!
It's small but it's perfect haha
I read The Life And Adventures Of Santa Clause to my little brother
He liked it so much and we didn't even finish the first chapter
Which is the saddest chapter
He kissed me on the cheeck at the end and told me to read it to him more tomorrow night
It was like out of a book or something
Except Melanie won't stop screaming and crying
because she's grounded or something
I always miss my daddy around this time of year
"I'll be home for Christmas" makes me think of him
I don't know it's kinda sappy to say.
But it's just what I feel.
I miss my nana too.
Gosh this stuff is deep
it's not just stuff I openly say or talk about I don't
know why I'm writing it here for anyone to see
anyone who cares that is

I don't know all I know is that my family has no money and I can't afford airfare right now
but I would love to.
I don;t care about getting a new camera or phone
I just want everyone to be absolutely happy for a day.


On a heavier note my sister is being a bitch. She's singing remembering Sunday..

I have more on my mind but nothing more I'd like to say.
Not here, Not now.



Keeping An Eye On The World
So Many Thousands Of Feet Off The Ground

have I ever told you that..

I saw PARAMORE Saturday and it was unbelievable.

I love when I go see bands that I know so well

Meaning every word of every song that is.

And i also think the starting line is rather incredible

and the almost did wickeddd, except they were very hardcore.

which was still wicked.

but difficult.

lol ^-^
I do not care if they didn't take time to meet their fans

(who by the way stood outside for 4 hours in the FREEZING cold. Yeah it was like 20 degrees I couldn't feel my toes...)

Theyre still my everything.

oh and so is this beautiful person:

My favorite Paramore songs currently:

Let This Go.

Here we go again (extended/live version)

Let The Flames Begin.

That's what you get.

My Heart.

Everyone loves all we know is falling more than Riot!

but I think i MIGHT love riot! more.

Because you can tell that its from the heart

(and it's not all about Jeremy haha)

and it has a lot of songs on it that you have to listen to a

ton of times beffore you really see how great it is.

and you can tell theyrve all gotten way better

and its just really great.

But awkif will always have a special

place in my heart because well, its like a legend.

its pretty much perfect

except for idk.

Both albums are GOLDEN

so its obviously hard to choose.

reality won't hurt, well, longer than it should

i guess the most that i can do is
make a call and tell you the truth
sing the words in melody
and hope that you'll believe me
here's another song for you
so this one this one makes two
i still don't know where to begin
i'll just leave it at this
i'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
wait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don'ti hope you know
you're my favorite thing
about the west coast
i wish i stayed
i hope you wait
so here i am
counting down the days
till california comes
this is the least that i can do
you know i'm bad at calling you
the best way i can extendthe lonely words i miss youi'll say it but i'm sure you knew
you're what i look most forward to
coming back to where i've been
i'll just leave it at thisi'm sure you always feel my eyes on you
but i hope that you will never feel unwanted
if you feel unwantedwait for me to move out west
it's ok if you don'ti hope you knowyou're my favorite thing
about the west coasti wish i stayedi hope you wait
so here i amcounting down the days till california comes

till california comes


i swear kenny knows what I'm feeling.

now the rain is just washing you out of my hair

destination: beautiful

you can't be perfect.
Well I just know this because you just
can't be.


have you ever just wanted to punch everyone you know in the face real hard
except for one person that even if you wanted to
theyre too far away for you to reach.
but you would never want to anyway.
all you want is to be in their arms again
like that mexican boy and that pale boy at the airport.

I take a walk down to the shore
And I wonder how much longer I’ll sustain these steps
It’s been a month since I’ve been gone
And it’s been a month too long since you have graced me with your presence
I smell your scent on every single shirt I wear;
I find pieces of your hair stuck to my suitcase
I try to call but the reception here is weak
And it’ll still be three more weeks until I get home
I hope your waiting by the door when I get home
I don’t want anyone to see me here alone
It’s not enough to say “I think about you” now
But that was all I had I walk the boards alone tonight and try to fill this empty space inside my chest
I took Atlantic home tonight and every neon light, and sign, spelt out your name
And every morning that I wake
I make a point to check the date incase I slept an extra day
I’ve crossed so many numbers out But every time I count them there are so much more


I hope youre waiting by the door when I get home
I don’t want anyone to see me here alone It’s not enough to say I think about you now
But that was all I had, but that was all… I hope your waiting by the door when
I get home I don’t want anyone to see me here alone It’s not enough to say I think about you now

but that was all i had.

perfect.

today was the perfect day.

I'll elaborate more tomorrow.


but it was perfect.


"From Boston to Seattle"

the only not perfect thing was that the 'to seattle part' wasnt there.

tonight, I am the drug you can't deny.

G-A-B-E gonna get you high.

I love our vibrant colors.

I miss that night.

Me+coll coll thought that gabe was going to be a bitch for some reason

but he was actually really really sweet.

He like looked at my eyes when he was talking to us and he smiled in the picture

as you can see. Colleen was gonna make a cool face like me but then Gabe made her laugh.

I wish g-a-b-e was gonna get me high tonight.

Theyre so good live.

I don't even want to talk about bryce or mikey right now.

I refuse to listen to sherwood or the rocket summer tonight. Or even cobra starship.

Its just too depressing.

So I'm listening to someone I haven't listened to in a really long time.

The hero/heroine video premiered yesterday

and it's easily their best.

I think it would be more meaningful if hanna beth was the girl in the video

but hanna beth is not meaningful to begin with.

I like to see Marty getting some action from someone other than her.

ahahah./

I loved how all the amazing spots in this lovely state I live in

were in the video.

All the fun places to be.

All the places I see all the time.

It was really realy great.

I'm really pumped for this Friday.

It's going to be a really great day.

This weekend is gonna partially suck though.

17 days till fuckingparamore.

so, 16 till tourzilla.

I really do miss those boys.

so is this what you call a getaway? Well tell me what you got away with.

I like listening to run to you really loud on my ipod because it sounds like Bryce is singing right into my ear.

I take a walk every day.

It's usually my favorite part of the day

unless I'm doing something really exciting that day.

It's really nice especially now that it's fall and the air is really crisp and clean

and the leaves are really pretty colors and when I step on them they crunch.

I always walk at sunset because it's the presttiest time.

I always walk with my ipod whose name is eleanor.

(My first ipod was named eleanor rigby but she died so now it's just eleanor.)

Today on my walk

I saw the lady I babysit for

and she talked to me for a minute

but then i kept walking because she was talking to this other lady. When she thought I couldn't hear her anymore she started to say 'that's my babysitter' to the lady. She started talking to her about me because I didnt look like I was listening to her but I was. I'm always listening. Even when I'm not. I like how she said 'my babysitter." We both know I am not hers but that's okay because no one says i belong to them ever except my mom which i hate. But I like it when My dad says it.

I like when people are taller than me.

Lauren is really short and she says that it's weird that I like it when people are taller than me but I really do. It makes me feel small and safe but don't listen to me because I dont even feel like listening to me and i dont even know what im saying.

There's no school tomorrow and tonight i'm going to the mall.

My aunt used to be one of the coolest people I know

But now I think she's crazy.

I thought of a really good christmas present for colleen and i started working on it.

I still have no idea what i'm getting Julia but it has to be good.

I actually have more than 100 bucks to spend this year so everyones getting good gifts.

They might not even cost anything

because they might be priceless.

I wish I could get everyone I love something priceless

But priceless things are sometimes very expensive.

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,

like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.

For twelve years I've held it all together

but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.

I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.

I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.

we were just there together and that was enough.

thatscommitment: oh okay that's good lol she just wants to see meeeeee her favorite person in the world
x3sundaydrive: yes of course

thatscommitment: maybe she'll adopt me

x3sundaydrive: we could only hope
x3sundaydrive: and you live in my house and we could have the same room becauise we would kick melanie out and we could both get really great jobs on newbury street and you could drive us every day and we would be rich and go to every show we wanted in any state around here becasue my mom is not strict at all and even if she is she gives in easy
x3sundaydrive: and then bryce/martin/jeff kummer will marry me and jared or andrew will marry you and we will get houses next door and live happily ever after.
x3sundaydrive: the end.

thatscommitment: that sounds really really nice.

thatscommitment: really really really like the closest thing to perfection i can think of.

x3sundaydrive: i agree
thatscommitment: oh and we will be rich photographers that shoot all the cool bands.
x3sundaydrive: of course.

x3sundaydrive: "And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

go read the perks of being a wall flower by Stephen Chbosky.

Julia told me to read it and I did

and it was a really effective book

I love reading but I never know what to read

So now you know and if you want to be enlightened than i suggest reading it.

i love bryce avary.

This is a picture i stole from this girl on myspace.

So sorry.

but i think its really beautiful.

do you want to get away?

get in the car we can leave today.

thank you God

for lights.

and electricity.

thanks god.

whoever you are.

Man I just saw something I'm glad that you are here.

I got to start to thinking And seeing things so clear.

Cause now how could I forget What she left

What happened in November Is what I needed.

And I'm sorry, that it shows But life ain't so bad you know.

Bryce avary is my biggest hero at the moment.

Im just so confused and depressed and all of these feelings

and I know hes felt a lot of awful things before

but what he sings is the most real thing that i know.

the last to know

The rocket summer is tied with paramore.

Theyre incomparable though.

Its so difficult.

but if i DID number my bands...

1. paramore 1. the rocket summer

2. The Early November

3. Mayday parade

4. We The Kings

5. Between The Trees

6. The Starting Line

7. The Higher

8. Cuteiwwaf

9. New Found Glory

10. Mae

I dont know where to put sherwood, it's a weird situation.

i love them times infinity though.

and also ive been listening to brand new a lot.

And the MAINE listen to them theyre golden.

and my favorite highway, sunny day real estate, the fold.

so much good shit.

yea we all have our things, I guess.

Hello & Happy Thursday

My heart is flying

because I am listening to Bryce

and I might be seeing Mikey

again on wednesday.

IM SO EXCITED

whoa I need to clean my room

and do mad homework

I really love PostSecret.
It amuses me that people

have such interesting secrets.

and the fact that they cant share them with anyone

except everyone

they dont know.

I think I'll send one in.

Lyrics of the day:

No oh and this won't be a sad song

there's gonna be claps and singing along.

around the clock-the rocket summer.

doyoufeel?

you know when
you're having a kind of weird week.And it's just stresful and lonely..kinda?
I cant explain it. But then, you hear a song you've heard a thousand times
but this time you actually listen to the piont of it
and it means so much to you
that you just start breaking down and cry


well such a thing just happened to me


I'm thinking about other things I heard about today
All this week and tomorrow
And how these hands can create some better things a better ring
but you see for now I got my own things
I can't help it I got too many issues I own
So I cannot help I'm afraid, yeah
But keep on preaching, preaching and heal the world
Lip service makes us look great

Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your things
Yeah we all have our things I guess
I guess my mind wanders off
from time to time

Sometimes I convince myself that all is fine in the world It's not mine
Why should I have to try to fix things I didn't create or contrive


Do you feel The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have so many things
Have the habits Had you Has it been for long
Can you feel the souls behind what's going on
Do you feel The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real Cause you got your own things
Yeah we all have our things Do you feel
The weight of the world singing sorrow
Or to you is it just not real
Cause you got your things
Yeah we all so many things
And I can get past these things

Ohh

happy poolieween

I'm listening to around the clock
[We had to cut (makes scissors motion) it. ]

I HAVE to be there wednesday!
It almost hurts thinking about it.
I didnt want to ask my mom about nfg which is today
because i didnt want to bother her since its halloween and everything.
so i didnt.


Today this kid asked me if I actually knew bryce..?
and i told this other girl he was my boyfriend.
She believed me as usual.

If I ever had a boyfriend like bryce I think my life would be complete.
I think it actual;ly is possible for two people to love the same person.
I dont believe in soul mates.

I wonder what tara thinks every night when she sees bryce on stage
and there are a hundred girls screaming for him
but she's in the back of the room and
She's the only one he's thinking about.

Im listening to hold it up.
On saturday, there was confetti during this song.
I miss it.


lyrics of the day:
Go face the day Go and see new things
Go face the day But youll remember me...
I see a tear inside when youre turned away
Another wound that Id take backIf I could
fill your heart just once and then
Id take you now where we could live again
-faces in disguise- sunny day real estate.

so anyway.
happy poolieween.

I can make you feel alive

I don't think perfection is when everything about you
you do absolutely right
every single time
since you were born.

I think it is
when you have to work as hard as you fucking can
until you reached just ONE of your goals
to the way you want it to be.

Next time you see your favorite person,
tell them you love them.

I always forget to and;
I end up not seeing them for a long long time.
And I never know when I'm going to see them again.


here are some quotes that sound stupid to you
but have stuck in my brain since it was said
until this very moment
and will always be there.

'Oh my god. I see you.'

'I heard you got in a fight tonight!'

'Fuck you monica. I give you honesty and you're a bitch about it.'

'Let's go on an adventure.'

'In my whole life I have never seen such disgusting behavior'

'everytome you consume more than you need you are stealing from the poor.'

'It was so amazing seeing you guys again.'

'There's no one like you here'

'Its what YOU want. It doesnt matter about anyone else. Everyone can do the same thing but it's not really the same because no one can do it like you.'

'if you squint it's kind of like mahogany'

'There are starving kids in africa'

'you're way too dramatic.'

'bryan's my nephew'

'you can go.'

'you can't go.'


I cant detail anything
I just can't.
It means what it means
and more.


I'm drinking vanilla cafe
from the international food section of stop&shop.
I have to go study
My throat is scratchy
my room is cold.

kill off this common state of mind

Dont you hate when you get someone into a band
and then, they
A. think they like them more than you.
B. Deny that you were the one who got you into them.

Inside I hope you know, I'm dying

I wish I was in that picture.
I wish i was just sitting on that bench by myself.
Away from the rest of the world
and their silly ideas.
I wanna just stop for a minute.
I just want to breathe and take take in this beautiful world that
I was given the opportunity to live on for a while while it is still beautiful.
This place, I'm sure there are tons like it in the world.
With a tree, and a bench.
But this one is beautiful and different all on its own, it seperates it from
those other places that are just like it.
People in this world don't think anymore.

and I'll admit that i can be a ittle selfish

I want a lot of shit.
I need nothing.
Except oxygen,
which is free.


stay happy.

and here we go again.

when I die,

I won't be alive anymore.

Here is a song we worte about you here is a song that you can sing along to

So I haven't written in this 'ol blog in ages!
I have a journal that I hand write but I think this is funner.
Wouldn't you agree?


I don't really have anything to say about the start of school except for that it sucks.
obviosuly.
I mean I guess its not THAT bad.
I feel really tall in my school.
without Julia around.

its weird.

ugh. I have room cleaning to do.
And more homework but just a little.

ummmmm sherwoood soon(ish)
for the third time :]
and Boys Like Girlsssss
and Paramore for the second time!
I HOPE.



latergator.

&everytime I think of him it makes me sick.

hay. so. It's like 1:14 & I woke up at around 12:30.

I really do hate waking up so late tomorrow I'll set my alarm for like 10 or so.

I have to babysit 3:30-5 but thats okay.

I just hope the kids aren't wicked loud today.

ew.

Braces suck a lot, fyi.

yah. I havent eaten really in the past three days.

whatever.

I have to go clean my room now I think.

And then babysit.

Hopefully I made over 30 bucks this week.

hah.

I need a new job.

& i think I might get one and leave my crappy job to melissa! wooo

my house= on fire

thatscommitment: EVERYONE will love you cause i do.


LETS BURN THIS BUILDING DOWN
straight into the ground
with our dirty looks and glances

WE WERE BORN FOR THIS.

I am going.
It's real.
Aug 15 Bos-Sea 6:15pm
Aug 21 Sea-Bos 10pm

Warped Tour.
Martin.
Julia.
Monica.
The Great escape

YOU SHINE BRIGHTER.

I am so sunburnt. It hurtsss. My face is stiff.

I have a sun-headache.

I hope this doesnt peel.

AT LEAST I DONT HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!

or the next day.

or the next day.

or the next day.

or any day.

until August 29th.

Which means We'll probably get out on

June11th next year. :) :)

I like getting out early.

okay. I'm going to go watch fuse, or something.

And drink.

water.

HAH GOTCHYA JULIA DIDNT I LOLLLL

since march. ;]

I want the pants to come realllly bad.

my face is really soft.

and hot.

like ouch hot.

not like dayyyummmm thas hot.

like isean.

kbyeeee!

If only time flew like a dove.

we've gotta make it fly faster than I'm falling in love.

thatscommitment: he wants in your pants

she's classy.

Some people REALLLY annoy me ahhh.
like you're just NOTTTTT funny like whyyy do people
even like you at alll? You're just soo terrible and youre
SUCH a hypocryte insane. Just go away.
7 days and 8 minutes until the fray.

i love paramore.
bye.

OH, I DONT BELIEVE IT.

sooo pretty much mikey is amazing?
Mikey from Sherwood that is.
The dude who is helping me and colleen get into
the Motion city soundtrack/Sherwood/the higher/the forecast
show @ axis on July 24th. Which We had tickets too but then we didnt and now we are probably going.
Because its mikey.
When me and colleen first
met him when they played with relient k and mae
we thought he was AMAZZZZINGGGGG
and yeah, he still is.
OMG!

Thanks Mikey & Sherwood!
you're amazing.

cityspinsaroundd: ahh i'm in your timezone!

The truth Is, I'm kind of down.
Down because there are people in
the world that I really care about.
I know, weird thing to be sad about,
huh? Well, as you may know, or may
not know, I am afraid of commitment.
As much as I want it. I want it so good.
But the thing is, It's not like I've never
cared about people before. Its just that
I always let everyone I love down. Its my
bad habbit, my downfall. And I think I may
have done it
again.

I feel selfish. all the time.
I didnt mean it.
And also, I'm really jealous.
Jealous of absolutely everyone.


cityspinsaroundd: its awesome we're in manhattan
like two blocks from central park and 2-3 blocks
from times square.



And I cant forget you
I know you want me to want you
I want to
But I cant forgive you
So when this is over, dont blow your composure baby
But I cant forgive you.
AND I CANT FORGET YOU.


ALso, I had no idea that mr. Gallagher was retiring.
i pretty much was tearing up during my math final because of it.
Now that I think of it,
he was deffinitely the most amazing teacher I ever had
And I will never forget him, ever.



Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence
TALENT WILL NOT
Nothing is more common than unsuccesful people with talent
GENIUS WILL NOT
Unrewarded Genius is almost a proverb
EDUCATION WILL NOT
The world is full of educated derelicts.
PERSISTENCE AND DETERMINATION ARE OMNIPOTENT.

Dear anyone I love,
Sorry.

Today kinda sucks but whatever.
The only thing is, on sucky days I remember
all of the terrible things in life.
& I hate that.
Right now I'm sitting in my room.
Its REALLY messy.
Because my mom just came in here and tore it apart
to find my math book which I have to return tomorrow.
Why am I even writing this? I realllly need to study.
bye!

The one that you hated!

yeah.
Mike Romero is very awesome.
Hes like "a patch of blue in a stormy sky"
lolllll. because all of my messgaes are pretty much hate mail
except for his which owns all.
& daves but thats just chitter chatter about paramore
and brand new and what not.

but yeah,
yah, I hate when people copy me too. its ANNOYING. but we're just trend setters. we're so cool that everyone else wants to be like us.

veryyyy true.
and apparently the smelly girl from kentucky
is acting up again lol.

!111!!!!! 11111!1!1!
I think i just like to solicate kids online.
owelllllll ;]


so I was wondering how long you've like the early november?
oh or cute is what we aim for?
ohhhhhh or PARAMORE.



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makes me mad.

whatever at least i am hanging out with rachel this weekend
and she is like the one person in the whole world
who is like reallyy original.
thats why shes my bestttt friend!
makes sense to me.
well Im off to eat and clean and study
bye.

lets tune out by turning on the radio.

hey..here's my top 100 songs for this school year. I tried to put them in order, but it was really hard. A lot of them are ties. Enjoy! :]
100. Bittersweet Symphany- The Verve
99. 99 problems- JayZ
98. You're So Damn Hot- ok Go
97. Saturday- Fall out Boy
96. Kung Fu Grip kiss- the Damnwells
95. Newport Living- Cute Is What We Aim For
94.The Black Parade- My Chemical Romance
93. Banana pancakes- Jack Johnson
92. Minstrel's Prayer- Cartel
91. Ocean Avenue- yellowcard
90.Vulnerable- Secondhand Serenade
89.Invisible- Ashlee Simpson
88.Snakes On A Plane (Bring it)- Cobra Starship
87. Good- Better Than Ezra
86. Headlock- Imogen Heap
85. dark blue- Jack's Mannequin
84. Which to bury, us or the hatchet?- relient k
83. Best in me- Sherwood
82.Hero heroine- Boys Like Girls
81. Breath me- Sia
80. When you're gone- Avril Lavigne
79.Eleanor Rigby- The Beatles
78. runaway- cartel
77. All Time Lows- Hellogoodbye
76. Unsaid- the Fray
75. Breakaway- Kelly Clarkson
74. hair- the Early November
73. Do you remember- The Summer Obsession
72. Hundred- The Fray
71. You wanted more- Tonic
70. Cadence- Anberlin
69. Dreaming- Boys Night Out
68. Waiting on The World to Change- John mayer
67.Trust me- the fray
66.Teasing to Please- Cute Is What We Aim For
65. Sun- Daphne Loves Derby
64. Pressure- Paramore
63. Pollen And Salt- Daphne Loves Derby
62. Be My Escape- Relient K
61. How Does It feel- Sugarcult
60. Dead Wrong- the Fray
59. Heels over Head- Boys Like Girls
58. Here it Goes Again- ok go
57. Suddenly I see- KT Tunstall
56. London Calling- The Clash
55. Amtrak is For lovers- Houston Calls
54. Sundress- Ben Kweller
53. Untouched and Intact- the Honorary Title
52. Set Fire To The Third Bar- Snow Patrol
51. Temper Temper- Envy On The Coast
50. Cross My Heart - The Rocket Summer
49. love Song For No one- John mayer
48. the Mixed Tape- Jack's Mannequin
47. the Space Between- valencia
46. Wonderwall- Oasis
45. Wine Red- The Hush Sound
44. Everything is alright- Motion city soundtrack
43. Sunday best- Augustana
42. Keep Holding On- Avril Lavigne
41. Coming Home- New Found Glory
40. 2 years underground- This Holiday Life
39. Is It Any Wonder?- Keane
38. the Fourth Drink instinct- Cute Is What We Aim For
37. Say This Sooner- The Almost
36. Decoration- the Early November
35. Save Your Breath- Hit The Lights
34. baby it's fact- Hellogoodbye
33. 100 times- Hit The Lights
32. I will follow you into the dark- Death cab For Cutie
31. Stolen- Dashboard Confessional
30. Born for this- Paranore
29. Must have Done Something Right- Relient K
28. Whoa- paramore
27. Zombies ate my neighbors- Single File
26. Baby Come On- +44
25. Tune out- the Format
24. ready & willing- Self Against City
23. Such Great Heights- The Postal Service
22. Beautiful- Bethany Dillon
21. Five minutes to midnight- Boys Like Girls
20. Wasteland- Augustana
19. Suspension- mae
18. Hey there Delilah- plain White Ts.
17. The Unwinding Cable Car- Anberlin
16. Don't be so hard- The Auditon
15. Technicolor eyes- Backseat Goodbye
14. I'm doing everything for you- The Rocket Summer
13. Young at heart- William Tell
12. Ever So Sweet- The Early November
11. Beauty In The Breakdown- the Scene Aesthetic
10. Lyrical lies- Cute Is What We Aim For
9. Bruised- Jack's Mannequin
8. Song in my head- Sherwood
7. Thunder Acoustic- Boys Like Girls
6. Tisbury Lane- Mae
5.Boston- Augustana
4. How To Save A Life- The Fray
3. Misery Business- Paramore
2. I want to hear you sad- The Early November
1. The Great Escape- Boys Like Girls

I'm in the business of misery.

I seriously cannot wait until Riot! by paramore comes out.

I sorta wish I was Hayley Williams. She's so amazing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlfKXwLQZgE

^Misery business. It's absolutely AMAZING.

I'm always up late, you never got your story straight. I'm always too late, I think I'm everything you hate.

I will stand, a broken (wo)man.

I want warpeddd more than my next 5 minutes of oxygen.
I neeed it.
Is there a free augustana show soon?
I think there is
but I dont know where.

the only thing that keeps me alive.

thatscommitment: i love you monica and i hope you know that

Today is a winding road

Pants came in mail.
Signed by the damnwells.


I get to see my friend Amelio tomorrow.
He's 92.
He's absolutely amazing.

I love Martin Johnson, Bryan Donahue, Paul DiGiovanni, And John keefe
more than you could ever know. It's so crazy. I MUST go to Warped tour.
If we get a limo I'm going with Erin And Lauren and colleen and tons more.
Maybe Alex. fun fun. I can introduce them all to my best friend Bryan. ;]

more to come.

they've found that we're all young at heart.

ew Today's mother's day. i hate my mom. I wanted to do to my dad's house; and I still am. she was like "It's mother's day and all you care about is your dad" welll he's my favorite person in the entire world. Even more than martin johnson. More than anyone. You don't understand. You should meet him. He'll love you. He loves everyone. It was his birthday yesterday and I didnt get to hang out with him. So I am today. Screw my mom.



She spent her childhood Somewhere deep in Missouri Grew up faster than her heart Mom said "You're a child of God" She said "But mom I'm in such a hurry" It might be California maybe New York Cause you know we're all young at heart You've taught me so much And brought me so far I know you'll understand I know you've felt like me before Cause you know we're all young at heart Met at his friends house There were cigarettes and Ekko in her He told her how he would like to learn to fly It went from love to worst With a child due in December She left him with a note in July It said that we're all young at heart You've taught me so much And brought me so far I know you'll understand I know you've felt like me before Cause you know we're all young at heart I know you'd like for me to stay And you could have it that way But you'd never really have me you know You could give me so much But sometimes that's not enough No, it's not enough for me She's 54 Felt she needed more than her prescription Laid there 8 days cold on the floor Finally a neighbor called He said "Something seems suspicious" They had to break down the door They found that we're all young at heart You've taught me so much And brought me so far I know you'll understand I know you've felt like me before Cause you know we're all young at heart I thought I needed you Now I need so much more I thought I found the truth Now it seems like it's still so far Sold my heart for the perfect drug It was the worst Coming down from love.. We're all young at heart You've taught me so much And brought me so far I know you'll understand I know you've felt like me before Cause you know we're all young.

I like Saturdays and the Rocket Summer.

Saturday saturday Saturday. Can every day be saturday?
Happy Birthday to my daddy! I love him more than anything in the entire world. Happy Birthday to madison as well. It is so beautiful out. Maybe I'll take a walk and pictures. I might go to the beach tonight and visit my dad.
I'm buying tickets for Sherwoooddd today. =) It's @ Axis. I'm excited.
Right now I'm listening to Love Song For No One by john Mayer. it's amazing.
So I'm about to go and do some homework then possibly hang out with colleen laterr. But I don't know. Mother's day is tommorrow but screw that.

laterrr<3

The Cost Of Misery is at an all time High.

Today's Friday. It sucked ass. Progress reports are no fun. I have been trying SO hard at school and yet I manage to get 4 c's. My mom is gonna killlll me. shit. I did get perfect attendance though! <3> Last year and the year before I got straight A's. I got honor roll first and second term. asdfghjkl; I think I'll go join the circus.

Or maybe I'll run away with martin and Bryan.I love Boys Like Girls.I love Boston.I don't think i ever want to live anywhere else.

More to come.<33monica